Living Life #1

I’ve been chatting with someone on my computer, that someone is replying on her mobile phone. She happens to be an ocean away. I was once again struck by how far technology has come in the past years, where people from just about anywhere in the world can have casual conversations via the internet, on their phones.

You #4 – Comfortably Numb


There is no pain you are receding.
A distant ship smoke on the horizon.
You are only coming through in waves.
Your lips move, but I cannot hear what you’re saying

Certain people can just bring out certain emotions in me. Some of these are good emotions, but some are downright dreadful. When these emotions are brought about by the same person over a certain period of time, you start to get numb of it. I do, anyway.

It’s rage, happiness, curiosity, sadness, melancholy, cheerfulness, all thrown into a blender. The result is an unrecognizable sludge that is repulsive and disgusting.

What am I trying to say? That the person disgusts me? That would be totally inaccurate. She does something to me, and it’s disgusting.

I think the feeling has grown from disappointment, to downright jealousy. Jealous not because of what you have right now, but more about what I do not have. Seems like you have everything, I have nothing.

There is no spark, with no one. A thick fog lies ahead and it is impossible for me to see through.


Relax, I need some information first.
Just the basic facts, can you show me where it hurts?

Everywhere.